Yesterday is not ours to recover, but tomorrow is ours to win or lose
~Lyndon Johnson~
~Lyndon Johnson~
I read a page from Jim Elliot's diary today.
It gave me perspective. In chaos. In confusion. That at the end, it is that call to do His will.
Many times this week, all I could focus on was that immense battle I felt I had to fight through the challenges that spring up. I asked the Lord if I still have his favour. And time and time again, He has shown me that favour. But, its still chaotic all I am going through. It is still not all sorted or smooth sailing. Yet, God is still saying I have his favour and that I am His beloved.
The experience has been a lonesome one. Not because people don't care. It is lonesome because I am at this place where God wants me to fully trust Him 100% so that His glory will be revealed.
Jim Elliot had many of these times. I am sure many others are going through these times too. Yet what is it that helps us live each day better? It is a certain hope that God is still good. God is still in control. The question is, do we believe it enough?
I've also discovered the capacity of my heart this week for God and others. It was painful at times. It was difficult. And my heart was tested. For me, it wasn't so much of whether I failed or passed the test. But it was what I learnt in this process of digging deep, or expanding and contracting - in the end, whenever our hearts are not tender or in the place God has central hold, our weakness and rights come forth so easily. It is as if I felt for me, my capacity to love others, to trust God, to give 100% of myself was something that I could use my own limited strength to do or control. It is these times that I see myself projected above God's working in me. I think I can do it. When in reality, I can't. Only God can. And it is that God can and dependence on God that is the basis for everything I can give unto Him and to others. Appreciating that morning session T, M & I had when we talked about the purity of heart. This is it, isn't it - the purity of our hearts is when we stop thinking we can do it all but it is GOD who can do it all, and by His grace enables and empowers us to do things through first shaping who we are.
Yeah, so thanks for those of you who prayed and are continuing to pray for my situation with work, and for my health. It was so precious and sacred the testimony of faith God has given each of us through those desperate cries to Him. As my mom put it, the spiritual family I have here in London was interceding on their knees as I was on the plane back, and I am especially encouraged by my cell group - you guys are my dream team!
Tomorrow, and having that hope for tomorrow is ours to win or lose :) And that is the spirit behind living a victorious life in Christ - knowing God is still good and in control!
I believe God's hand yet again will turn the hearts and minds of the authorities , and also that all will be alright when I check myself into the haemophilia centre as I approach next week's challenges.
Lord, open my eyes to the work of your hand in my life.
In the times I feel defeated and stressed out,
In the times where I fail you in my walk & in my relationship with others,
In the times I doubt you,
In the times I can't handle it anymore,
Lord, open my eyes to the work of your hand.
I became a servant of this gospel by the gift of God's grace given to me through His power.
(Ephesians 3v7)
It gave me perspective. In chaos. In confusion. That at the end, it is that call to do His will.
Many times this week, all I could focus on was that immense battle I felt I had to fight through the challenges that spring up. I asked the Lord if I still have his favour. And time and time again, He has shown me that favour. But, its still chaotic all I am going through. It is still not all sorted or smooth sailing. Yet, God is still saying I have his favour and that I am His beloved.
The experience has been a lonesome one. Not because people don't care. It is lonesome because I am at this place where God wants me to fully trust Him 100% so that His glory will be revealed.
Jim Elliot had many of these times. I am sure many others are going through these times too. Yet what is it that helps us live each day better? It is a certain hope that God is still good. God is still in control. The question is, do we believe it enough?
I've also discovered the capacity of my heart this week for God and others. It was painful at times. It was difficult. And my heart was tested. For me, it wasn't so much of whether I failed or passed the test. But it was what I learnt in this process of digging deep, or expanding and contracting - in the end, whenever our hearts are not tender or in the place God has central hold, our weakness and rights come forth so easily. It is as if I felt for me, my capacity to love others, to trust God, to give 100% of myself was something that I could use my own limited strength to do or control. It is these times that I see myself projected above God's working in me. I think I can do it. When in reality, I can't. Only God can. And it is that God can and dependence on God that is the basis for everything I can give unto Him and to others. Appreciating that morning session T, M & I had when we talked about the purity of heart. This is it, isn't it - the purity of our hearts is when we stop thinking we can do it all but it is GOD who can do it all, and by His grace enables and empowers us to do things through first shaping who we are.
Yeah, so thanks for those of you who prayed and are continuing to pray for my situation with work, and for my health. It was so precious and sacred the testimony of faith God has given each of us through those desperate cries to Him. As my mom put it, the spiritual family I have here in London was interceding on their knees as I was on the plane back, and I am especially encouraged by my cell group - you guys are my dream team!
Tomorrow, and having that hope for tomorrow is ours to win or lose :) And that is the spirit behind living a victorious life in Christ - knowing God is still good and in control!
I believe God's hand yet again will turn the hearts and minds of the authorities , and also that all will be alright when I check myself into the haemophilia centre as I approach next week's challenges.
Lord, open my eyes to the work of your hand in my life.
In the times I feel defeated and stressed out,
In the times where I fail you in my walk & in my relationship with others,
In the times I doubt you,
In the times I can't handle it anymore,
Lord, open my eyes to the work of your hand.
I became a servant of this gospel by the gift of God's grace given to me through His power.
(Ephesians 3v7)
Oceans Will Part
If my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
When I’m blind to my way
There Your Spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
Oceans will part nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise glory shown
In my life Your will be done
Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise
I’ll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
If my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
When I’m blind to my way
There Your Spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
Oceans will part nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise glory shown
In my life Your will be done
Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise
I’ll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
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