Enough

Much has happened. Much has taken place. Too much.

Its a hard knocked life, God. Help me.

I've come to terms with the complexities and imperfect people we are, maybe resulting from the tides and waves that sweep through one life : mine.

But God is enough. More than enough.

I am assured and convinced within my inner being that all my Father requires of me is to flow with Him and flow at His pace for me in life. I am learning to be unaffected by everything except my relationship with God and in that flow with God's Spirit living in me. God is in total control, even when situation seems so impossible & so tough to just understand. But amazingly, it is those times and those situations where He is incredibly real & in total control.

God, are you truly enough?

One can only know restedness once one has experience restlessness. It is a peace untapped into. But total restedness is an inner peace of embracing God, not anything else that may even seem God related and not anyone else.

I only understood this last nite for the very first time.

Its not enough to be rested in yourself and in a situation when we find maybe a temporary peace. It is about being rested in who God is. I understood it only because I was in a position of restlessness. God teaches through experiences and situations, and that's the beauty because he teaches us again and again - no matter how many times we slip up.

I made a very precious friend at yNEEC. His name is Tony. I thank God for his "God factor" in my life because through him, I found a freedom in being who I am when he spoke into my life. Jesus is changing us everyday and we are all to call upon the power of God even in moments where we hate ourselves, and when people criticise us with no understanding. Tony saw me as his friend, and he help me understand something about myself and help me rediscover a joy was taken away.

God is truly enough.

I want to keep flowing in the surrenderedness that the whole essence of things is that everything is about God - all for God, all for love. Doing it out of a devotion to Him. It is not about just saying it. It is not just about declaring it. Nothing can tear apart our lives, not even words that cut deep, not even things people do, not even the way we are misunderstood : Nothing can tear us apart when we have that restedness in God that everything we do revolves around Him and that we do it all for Him, deeply set within every ambit of our hearts.

Doing things out of a love and devotion to God. It is not just a saying. Now, my dreams will be resurrected in accordance to that "God factor" in it especially in my work & ambition. God's pace is about the precise timing of moulding the dreams and not about us making our happen.

God is enough.

A perspective I learn to have and to balance is that we are all not there yet. I will slip up in my words and actions, but that doesn't mean I don't love God or am not devoted to God. I have understood this so clearly now. God sees our hearts and what is inside. Our God-hole or God-hold if you like. I am not going to strive to be a better person or a better Christian. But the only thing that I can pursue after is a prayer to my Father to make me more Christ like. To be more Christ like in everything I do through the power of His Spirit.

God is more than enough.

Out of a sense of rest, we are able to serve God best and most effectively.

Its amazing how incredibly free from encumbrances one's life will experience when it is rested. A rested life is one that is unaffected by everything except by one's relationship with God.

I pray that this new understanding too would spur of within me a different kind of attitude when I see people, and learn not to be quick to judge because the God factor can change lives and He is enough, even to the one who cannot believe the best about themselves.

I read a book this week about how we are made and that a man who is made after God's heart is "made" by God - in the development of His character. It is not about the man who knows it all or has it all sorted.

"In the development of Christian character there sometimes comes moments when darkness seems to fall, the sun seems to set, and to the man himself everything seems lost. Other people, observing his life, wonder if he is sinking beyond all hope of recovery."

"The man may not recognise it; he may feel himself helplessly adrift in the storm, but always "the Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart" (PS. 34:18). So we shall find that David proves the truth of the saying, "Man's extremity is God's opportunity."