Reflecting the sower

My garden is an honest place. Every tree and every vine are incapable of concealment. and tell after two or three months exactly what sort of treatment they have had. The sower may mistake and sow his seeds crookedly, the plants make no mistake but come and show his line.

A garden reflects the sower. The plants will grow as the gardener plants them.

In the past few weeks, riding the storm and just been given a hard time by others and maybe to some extent me giving others a hard time too, I wonder if God made a mistake with me. Not just once. But many times I wonder if God made a mistake with me. If God didn't create me, maybe someone else's life would be better off. I wonder if He put me in the wrong place, or put me with the wrong people. Mostly, I wonder more often this season whether HE made some part of me incorrectly that is so despicable or dysfunctional to others. I think sometimes I don't measure up to some other plants in God's garden. I sometimes even believe I am really a weed but no one has found out yet.

Is it just me?

Maybe.

It took me some time to really just believe the best about the plant God gave life too when He sowed the seeds of my life. I began to think about my own garden and how I am sowing. Its hard right to really hear God audibly say, I formed you in a wonderful way and plan a purpose in your life no one else can fill. How I long to hear God tell me himself that I am amazingly unique and special.

Here's the catch.

Everything He has ever cared about is my welfare. And He shows it right not by making me the best plant in His garden. He shows it by wanting and allowing me to be myself ( yes, me) and to use the gifts that HE gave and implanted in me in a positive way that reflects His glory.

He gives me stewardship of my own garden. He teaches me to tend different seasons of the garden, to understand that there is a time for everything. In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invisible summer. So in response to this hard knocked life I talked about a few entries back, I know God's answer is always the same as every gardener, all things work out for the good of those who love Him, and every painful, bad experience with life ( usually people right, especially those who hate you despite u showing love), God turns it around and uses it for God to grow more like Him. I can testify to this!

Our garden needs to be watered, not forgotten.

I find that as my trust grows, I can let go of all the stuff in my life that I worry about and look for and enjoy the good things of each day, rather than linger on the good things of yesterday that I once enjoyed.

I have learnt the secret of being content in any situation is to really look at Paul's life..."I can do everything through Him who gives me strength" He has so much of Jesus to pour out because his garden was tendered, and his heart was full of love, not knowledge. Love compelled him. Love compelled Jesus. Does love compel you and I?

Its easy to love when all is well, but what about times when you're mocked when you show love or when others are so indifferent...or the times in life where we feel betrayed by people you love and trust only to have them turn on you? or to be cheated by a friendship? does love still compel us? Or do we hold resentment because we have a hard time forgiving them. It was tough for me. I found that slowly these sentiments ate into my soul just like a snake in the garden that weaves from one end to the other so subtly destroying plants. I heard this hissing sound one day when I was sleeping, and it was like a wake up call to me. Can u imagine hearing a hissing sound in your head and ear that was really loud and there I was thinking to myself, snake! don't move? jump? yell? what do i do? Its not a joke. It was loud and clear message for me to see how Satan can use a situation in my life to inject poison into my soul...I really didn't know how much I had borned inside me or whether I had enough in me to forgive. Or do I have to continue to learn the hard way , and end up a bitter old hag?? Toxin is endless. Now I know why we all need to really examine our heart regularly.

Someone wise said, if you don't want to fall down, don't walk in slippery places. You need to be alert to know your points of weakness and to ask God for your protection. Erm, wah! Does that mean I have to really think about my weaknesses. tough one. but that helps us really to examine our hearts regularly, and really releases that sense of freedom in the Spirit.

My cg leader said this to me after Encounter Weekend, "Holding on to a resentment was like eating rat poison and waiting for the rat to die." Well said.

Those who love most I find are the true disciples of Jesus Christ. It is not those who know most, but really those who LOVE most.

Are we reflecting the sower in our lives?

I remember the day when a friend of mine shared something with me, with this insightful reminder to me : GOD's DREAM IS YOU! No doubting that for a second.

God's garden is not like our garden.

I believe that there is a special niche in God's garden that only I can fill and only you can fill with the beauty, colour and shape that He gave you and I. He is the master Gardener and the master Gardener does not make mistakes.

God's dream is you and He never makes mistakes. Therefore, you and I are not a mistake. We are precious to Him, and to each other!

My garden is an honest place. My garden is my life and I am entrusted with the stewardship to care for it and to tend it. The plant will grow as I plant them, if I plant them at all.